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I been thinking alot lately. And about a lot of things. So many things have changed in the last year. This time last year i thought i was on top of the world, everything was what i thought to be perfect. But soon after my whole world came crashing down around me and there was nothing i could do about it. I should of known something this great could never last. I had it all i had a great boyfriend, the greatest best friends, and my family was perfect. Until a friendship was destroyed, my brother fell terminally ill and my relationship self destructed. Its only now that im picking up the pieces, trying to fix things and dealing with emotions i couldnt deal with at the time. Im still numb towards alot of things, one in perticular. Im not sure if this numbness will last for ever, will i grow to become angry, sad, confussed or frustrated? who knows. But im choosing to push on through the storm, choosing to keep my head high and my options open...