Time

They say time heels everything, and everythig gets better with time. Everything is suppose to get easier. But how much time? But how long will it be before im completely numb towards you? before i can happily say i dont love you. They always just say time, but they never tell us how long precisely, so we can anticipate the day that someone that meant so much means nothing, and it cant hurt us anymore. How ever as time goes on, we think more about what happened and how we got to the stage of wanting to forget, and it just makes us hurt more there for prolonging the time till numbness comes. Why is that as time goes on, its not getting better or easier, the pain is more every day, i have more questions everyday, i miss you/us more everyday. How could i have prepared myself for this??? was there anyway? maybe i shouldnt have gotten into it in the first place. Is not ever loving the answer??? Therefore we dont have to wait, we dont have to hurt, or learn to trust, wedont get betrayed, and there is no quesdtions and no one to answer to.